And this bird you cannot change..

Free Bird.

She was a bird with broken wings. She broke a lot of promises. She broke a lot of rules. But most of all her heart was broken. No it was shattered into a thousand intricate pieces and it was scattered in Philadelphia, Charlotte, New York, and of course New Jersey.

She now is settling down and migrated South yet again but for some reason this time is completely different. She no longer is masking her face with fake tan and eye liner, it always smeared anyway. She is not kissing strangers in hope they will tell her that she is beautiful and she will magically believe it. She knows that her beauty is engraved inside her soul. The rhythm of this new life has a different melody. All the songs she hears and all the people she encounters have a different glow than she noticed before.

Sure she has some pain and treacherous bruises from her past but that does not nor will it define her future. She must live in the present. What is difficult for this bird to understand the concept is letting go of her past. Her story is not who she is, it is what gives her the strength to carry on.

Sure she will write anonymously. She likes her name yet her alias names are much more seductive. She always wants to fly and be free but the only way to reach the sky is if she takes a moment, reflects and lets out a sigh and stays in one place.

Sometimes trusting is kind of a crapshoot someone told her. But she would rather live in truth and ignore the lies that molded the image of who she thought she should be

She is deciding to stop defying nature. She is here in this world to share love and light. She is more than just a good time. She is a gift, just like everyday is a new present to open and be delighted to unwrap the paper.

  

silence is more like a pearl. soft and docile.

i had an extreme array of alliterations.  everyone called me long island. so let em. let em think im that shallow. they think someone can be that hollow? Did they really see the eyes because those brown spears cannot be a falsity. They see the glimpse of the moment and gossip. And oh what is that? she is not from here? She must be only trying to grab attentions..is what they all interpet her outbursts and sincere shout outs. Noone should try to. Why can't they let them be and let the damn girl tell you what it means

look at me? look at your face

this is only a temporary tapestry that is intertwined with different threads and sides to the stories that truly happened and truly affected each individual very differently. it is just only acceptable to think your concept of how to deal and handle the moments in life to your best design that everyone is a silly fool to think otherwise...

welll doll your right.

"I hope one day you will remember this moment". The stranger sincerely stared at her pittiful mess of a face that early Sunday Morning. Wait it is actually Monday Morning. She barelyhas a grasp on the time of the day let alone the sub way scheduelle. No wonder the express was running she thought. She had way too much fun that Sunday Funday. Funny since they preach that Sunday is the day of rest and relaxation. She stumbled up and smiled and gave him a half ass compliment. Sure he meant well but what does that train wreck know anything about me? Besides that a snow bunny is leaving the streets of North Philly at 6 in the morning with a see through polyester shirt. She did not like that he was right and his absolute and reasoning behind anything evil and bad comes from ignoring the light of being righteous and bla bla bla bullshit. He wanted to send her some spiritual serenity but he steered her into a sea of sadness because she did not believe a word he said to her. How can this be the defining moment of my adult life?




How can anything ever happen if you keep running away. Sometimes it is good to take a nap from the negativity and wake up with a wond of wonderous witt.

Stumble into a new scene and dont recollect previous scenes from a different play. Every act is never performed the same way. Stay in character. Noone can quite portray an original role if the words are performed by improv. Life is one big improvisation. So do not worry if you studder or hault on a heartfelt humble that is hidden behind the smiles. The sincere soul is scared by the scares given after your eyes are piercing the person in front of you.

The ball was always in my court, I wish I knew how to catch.

I said i was about to dive into the ocean.

But I found a river that has no end.

So I figured I float foolishly on and feel fancy on this decor of temptation"


The moon sprinkles shiny kisses at the river.

She shakes her hair and waves it in front of his face,

He wishes she did not ruin her heels. But she could always get more.

You only get one tonight. He did not want her to not look at him the way she does.

He laughs and covers his soft freshly shaved face.

"What, do I have something on my face".

"No but you are shaking. I did not plan for a midnight swim"

She whimpers and apologizes apathetically.

He grabs the lower end of her back with his hands. He thrusts her toosh and gives a tight squeeze.

He relieves  her numbing chills for a little while.

This is not a bad type of medicine.

Hell water can even kill you. Might as well swim before you sink. Maybe you can float.

honey have you wept?.., your eyes look weary. i can never tell the brown leaves them a dark mystery

Red is a very seductive color.
No wonder the wicked witch wanted her ruby shoes.
The rather  startling beauty that captured her eyes captured such passion in such a hurry.
No wonder this woman couldnt keep this prized possession. The aggression she illuminates in her eyes as she is stumbled to noticed the girl with the bow in her hair has trespassed and taken something that she didnt even know anyone could possibly want. But the shoe fit. And it complimented her blue dress..

So she would try and figure out the answers, follow that road and ask as many questions. The Wizard might not have the answer. But he will sure as hell give me a ride. Oh hey there you want to come for a ride?

The girl thought she needed a diamond. But there are many gems ands stones in this world. Explore all different elements.  Maybe you have to find to search for the strength and the courage that lies within a strong miniscule ruby. Maybe you will feel blue till someone finds thats passion of red flowing inside you.

Jewels are very desirable and makes a girl feel pretty. All the rare ones are harder to find. It is easy to find a pre cut rock. But if your going for genuine quality, then you may have to search trails that can lead you even China.

Luck is hard to hold on to. Good or bad. The Stones said goodbye to Ruby Tuesday. They know she could not be held on tightly for to long. It is sad but She will dance and sing to another song.

She didn't think it was bad she had these ruby slippers. She just did not want to be stuck in Kansas. Can you blame her?

Sure sure, whatever you say. uh huh no I get it it is for good I know

They are all laughing like they heard the same song on the radio more than 100 times. But this time when everyone keeps laughing and giggling away to see what I will do next.  Predictibly being unpredictabe can have good and bad perks.

For starts all he does is spew at some felicitous w0rds that I am annoying him. Almost, he is tuning me out because he has been through the long goodbyes. He is predictably going to have a woman very shortly and one to keep the bed warm. That I am not surprised of.

what is the jaw dropper my darlings? what is the reason i am expressing this story of a girl who predictably goes back to the boy she thought would be one of her great ones? why does this foolish silly girl continue to think he truly did tried to keep her heart safe.

But she didn't predict he laugh and then walk away. She never thought he would pretend she meant nothing. She never thought we would think she is just like another girl.

So maybe I am just a girl. A girl with a heart who kept it hidden. And maybe I was scared it would break. But luckily she knows how to be unpredictable.

his eyes will fade. the heart will heal

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