Although it looks like a winter wonderland outside. Although the snow makes everything look pure, pretty, and gentle, the weather is treacherous. The feelings inside me is hotter than a volcano. And despite the freezing temperature outside, my body is on fire and i do not know how to put myself out.

don't let life pass you bye.

when one asks what can i do with my life. the answer should be ..."what can't you do with your life"?



i wonder what is next on my plate.





some coffee. some laughs. some familiar voice in the distance. i keep walking further away from the familiar into the dark unknown that feels oh so forbidennly good.
 
 
someone told me how i make them smile yet its a struggle to get me to open up and accept a compliment. can you blame me for being defensive and scared to let someone touch my soul so deeply that it takes my breath away?
 
 
 
 
covered in a white blanket of snow. although i am isolated inside these walls my mind is free to travel anywhere and everywhere.
 

penny lane is in my head

A guy and a girl walk down he isle. They promise eachother eternity and death do them part. But they neglect to think about the parts in between eternity and death. Living is a lot harder than dying. Waiting is the hardest part. It is sad to know that you may have witnessed a beautiful matrimony between two people who look and act perfect for eachother. But what if your in school and you stumble into a jerk you think might be the guy of your dreams. Or you are bathing on the beach and think prince charming just picked you up while your prince Eric is off fighting someone elses war or is working a 9-5 job, living a life entirelly bopposite of you. Some people say if you cheat its wrong. but what is wrong or right to your insticts. your impulses.




Its very frightening to know that you mean the world to someone else. And that miles away there is a secret you keep that noone will ever know. And the one moment you believed loved could truly be real, you simply are stuck with a realization that everything beautiful is always, always broken. And in some twisted, comforting way, thats how it should be.

remove the labels.

remove the tags on my clothes, hell take off the clothes

bare, naked, nude,natural

i am merely skin.

i am only living.

but that's better than anything else i have ever done.

I am stripping myself of what I thought was normal. I am stripping from the constraints of the regular.

I am diving into an endless sea. I have found an oyster filled with black pearls. They are rare, as the color of my dark eyes. They are beautiful and not acknowledged for their unique and rare quality. Stop overlooking the natural beauty. Diamonds are not forever. My words will remain forever, and the sea will forever flow as the words swimming inside me continue allong with the ocean's tide.

Oh reluctant liar, you never seem to dissapoint me.

Oh hopeless soul, have you noticed how deep I can look into your eyes.

Have you noticed that I can get lost inside them.

So you want to kiss me forever?
How do you know if there is such a thing.

Happiness is not a feeling, its a moment.

Nothing last forever. Nothing is set in stone.
There is no such thing as perfection and no such thing as permanate.

There is only now. and there is only me.

So goodbye to you, and goodbye to whatever you ever thought we were.

I was nothing more than a figmant of your mediocre imagination silly rabbit.

don't you know tricks are for kids, I'm full grown.

I like the word cusp

On the cusp of failure is when you're on the brink of sucess.

When we feel the most alone, someone reminds you how fortunate you are.

It's hard to remember  the good and all the kind words, it is even harder to forget all the bad.

Oh hopeless fool. there's no need to be sad.

Don't give in to hurt,
Expand your kind soul, let your heart take control.

Don't listen to those wounds. Soak in the pain and release it with a smile.
It will all be over in a little while :)

As I listen to an old Death Cab song and laugh at how foolish I was

A familiar song, and unfamiliar feeling arises as the notes come out of the radio..

The words are not depressing their elegantly enlightening.

Thoughts can never be felt the same way twice
The beat in my heart feels disturbingly nice.